friday night rant

it's a friday night and i just got back from dinner with cgsa. i've been so wiped out this week. i had midterms monday which went, well, i don't really know yet but all i know is that it's over and done with. then my project for my rotation went awry. it wasn't my fault really. they had me transfect into a cell line that apparently was not transfectable(?!). so they had me do it all over again with a new cell line. so i ran my rt-pcr this afternoon and, of course, there was nothing there. we're still not sure if it was something wrong i did (which it could be since i added 4 ul of cDNA instead of the required 10 ul. . . i couldn't properly multiply 2.5 x 4). but the controls worked so that shouldn't be it. or it could actually mean something, something i'm not sure what yet but i'm hoping my pi does. . . or i'll have to present a blank graph on tuesday.

sorry for ranting about research stuff. i really wish i could write a nice essay-type thing, contemplating my purpose in life, or reminiscing about things past, but i'm finding it real hard to get over the everyday things now. like why alka-seltzer and vinegar can't seem to dissolve all the hair stuck in my drain when it used to do that quite easily. . . or how i could get quarters to do my laundry tomorrow. . . or how i could get back to a normal sleeping habit. . . well, doing this does not help either. . .

i'll be going swing dancing tomorrow. so that should be something to look forward to. now i have to pick an outfit for that. gosh.

this was me last thursday at giant eagle! :) 

it's 1 in the morning but i had a tall cappuccino a couple of hours ago and i'm still wide awake! i had the coffee because i ought to be studying (for another midterm yes, they never seem to end). but a classmate of mine lent me a copy of two seasons of sex and the city and i've just gone through 7 of them now. . . i'm one heck of a grad student aren't i?

wooohooo! the sun is out and it's 67 deg outside. this day is gorgeous! and i have a midterm in 2 hours and 13 minutes. i'm not really worried. i've finished studying a while ago. . . i just realized there are two things that are essential for my happiness. . . sunshine and chocolate. . . realized that while eating yanyan while sitting out in the sun. . . . midterm? . . . whatever. . . hehe

para sa mga walang balentayms. . .

been playing this song a lot lately. naghahanap ng pag-asa:) . . .

Guess I wasn’t the best one to ask
Me myself with my face pressed
Up against love’s glass
To see the shiny toy
I’ve been hoping for
The one I never could afford
The wide world spins and spits turmoil
And the nations toil for peace
But the paws of fear upon your chest
Only love can soothe that beast
And my words are paper tigers
No match for the predators of pain inside her

I say love will come to you
Hoping just because I spoke the words that they’re true
As if I offered up a crystal ball to look through
Where there’s now one there will be two
I was born under the sign of cancer(love will come to you)
Like brushing cloth I smooth the wrinkles for an answer(love will come)
I’m always closing my eyes and wishing I’m fine(I close my eyes and wish you fine)
Even though I know I’m not this time(even though I know your not this time)

I say love will come to you
Hoping just because I spoke the words that they’re true
As if I offered up a crystal ball to look through
Where there’s now one there will be two

Dodging your memories a field of knives
Always on the outside looking in on other’s lives

I say love will come to you
Hoping just because I spoke the words that they’re true
As if I offered up a crystal ball to look through(I have offered up to you)
Where there’s now one there will be two

And I wish her insight to battle love’s blindness
Strength from the milk of human kindness
A safe place for all the pieces that scattered
Learn to pretend there’s more than love that matters

"love will come to you"
Indigo girls

meals on wheels!!!!

finally had the time and the motivation(?) to blog. i know i should have no excuses now not to blog, what with the coming of my "baby". but life is just so uneventful. why bother writing anything down? but my motivation this time is i'm looking for more reasons not to study for my midterms. . . hehe.

anyway, i actually did something interesting today. cgsa, the christian group i've been running with since i got here, volunteered for the meals-on-wheels program. basically, you take food to people who for one reason or another, aren't capable of leaving their homes to get food and groceries and stuff. so these are mostly old people who live alone. anyway, the group i was assigned to (christina, alisha and i) picked to go to this one highrise apartment building. the other route choices were neighborhoods and it's really hard to expect three girls, two of whom are not from columbus, to navigate the treacherous and often confusing roads of this city. anyway, it was pretty interesting because you actually see how most of these people live. it really made me thankful for how things are back home, with regards to the elderly. i mean, some of these people don't get visitors for days so those who deliver these meals are sometimes the first people they've talked to in a while. . . but it made me miss my lolas back home. . .

i really should be studying now. or napping. . . hmmmmm. . . decisions. . .

malabong blog

finally figured out how to post pictures properly, silly me. thanks prek! although i'm sorry for posting these photos in a somewhat illogical sequence. it's not chronological, nor is it in order of importance. and most of these were from our vacation at montemar in bataan when i went back home over the christmas break so medyo delayed na.

well it's friday night and i've decided to stay at home and chill (nask). pero literal na chill kasi malamig pa rin at medyo giniginaw nga ako kasi parang lalagnatin ako or something. but i'm fine. i just need to rest i guess. the good news is though that iinit na this weekend! baka umabot a daw ng 50s! sa wakas!

my thoughts are a bit addled right now. must be the 2 paracetamols i took:) i don't really have much of an update anyway. well, i bought a pair of boots yesterday. i wasn't feeling well kaya yun, napabili tuloy. pero cute naman kasi talaga siya, in fairness. tsaka sawang-sawa na ako sa itsura ng winter boots ko. kelangan na niya magpahinga.

ang labo ko na talaga. 'til next time na lang. tulog na ako.

kayaking 

mama and i at dambana ng kagitingan 

si leeron naliligo ng buhangin 

sgt. zeth-zeth 

parang survivor! (our own little cove in bataan) 

my baby 

Musical Tag

I've been tagged by my sis
Random 10
1. Ghost - Indigo Girls
2. Ligaya - Eraserheads
3. I Have Nothing - Whitney Houston (was watching american idol)
4. Spinning Around - Kylie Minogue
5. Everlasting Love - Jamie Cullum
6. The Blower's Daughter - Damien Rice
7. Sweetest Thing - U2
8. Miracle Drug - U2
9. Some Kind of Wonderful - Joss Stone
10. Unang Araw- Sugarfree
What is the total amount of music files on your computer?
according to my wmp . . .370 files
3. What is the last song you listened to before this message:
Blower's Daughter
4. Write down five songs you listen to a lot or mean a lot to you
1. All I Want is You - U2
2. Ligaya - Eraserheads
3. Burnout - Sugarfree
4. Ghost - Indigo Girls
5. Sometimes you can't make it on your own - U2

5. Who are you gonna pass this stick to? [3 persons and why]
sarah: madami kasi yang music files. tsaka matagal ng di nagba-blog
jae: kasi parating nagba-blog
jem: about music yung huling blog niya e

another cold day in columbus

i'm so sick and tired of being cold. aaaaarrrrrgggghhhh. can't take this anymore. i'm in the lab, but for some reason it's just frigid here. and we can't even adjust the thermostat.

well, on the bright side, it's the first time in two weeks that i don't have any studying to do. . . well, i could be reading up on stuff, you know, being a grad student and all. . . but i'm not yet that type of grad student. . . anyway, with midterms being over i decided to treat myself to a trip to target and buy myself. . . socks. i never appreciated the importance of socks ever before, since i rarely wore them in the last 6 years or so. i mean, you only wear socks if you're wearing school shoes or rubber shoes. i personally prefer sandals over, well, any other footwear so back in college i'd be lucky to own 3 pairs of socks. now i own approximately 30 pairs of socks. astounding ain't it? and they're still never enough. hence the trip to target. i got these really cushy angora socks for half price. and a knitted hat for about three bucks. but sadly enough, target seemed to have stopped carrying gloves, thermals and other winter stuff, which does not make sense at all. it's still the middle of winter for goodness' sakes and they're already plying use with spring coats and skirts that you'd have to wear five of (one on top of each other) in this temperature, which i'm sad to report is back to the teens. so there.

funny thing, on the way back to lab from target (which is about a 10 minute walk from where my lab is now) with my bright yellow old navy bag (ok, so i also bought a pair of jeans that i could fit a couple of thermals under it, if ever it gets really cold again) who else should i come across but my PI. lucky me. i was of course immediately on the defense. no hi's or hellos, only " i had a 4 hour incubation so i went to buy socks". mukhang guilty.

hmmmm. . . seems i have to stay until about 8 in the lab tonight. i'm being punished. that's what i get for going shopping in the middle of the day.